Yes , indeed I cant stand this festive holiday season. its not cuz im Atheist (( BECAUSE I MOST CERTINALY AM NOT )) the reason has nothing to do with religion. It has to do with my family. I cant stand them. This holiday is waaaaay too hectic and cant get a moments peace. i barely have time to write this! I guess it's people in general that bother me this time of year. only around Danny am i truly happy . He's even noticed this for himself.
But why exactly can i not stand people? let's start with my mother

* I love her as much as anyone person can love an angry badger (( which i realize is kinna mean to say)) I DO love her . . . but we're just too different to ever get along. I cant WAIT till I can move out and live with Danny. you have NOOOO idea. its practically killing me. she's overbearing and kinna psycho. she's always bitching about something . and if something is wrong , its MY fault. *sigh* im loosing whats left of my mind. And i knw that once i move out she's gonna call me like 3 times a day just to say hi. to her im still 8 years old. cant do anything for my self. need constant supervision. she just dosent get it.And everytime i try to tell her , she tells me I'm the one whose wrong. she has no idea what it's like "now-a-days" she THINKS she does , but thats not the same as actually knowing MOM!

*my dads really nosey and always has to be in everybody's business , which get's VERY annoying , might i add. He will actually take things out of the garbage and read them. things that arnt even his. it dosent have to be anything secret , just random things that I or anyone else throws away.WE actually have to HIDE things from him cuz whenever I or anyone else spends money , he has a little fit . so bills are a bitch at my house.He bitches just as much as my mom does and he's a huge hypocrite .

* and my sister just plain gets on my nerves.
She is the REAL emo kid. she dosent dress emo . she dosent look emo. but she sure as hell acts emo. and she gets pissed of when you tell her she is acting emo. which is the truth! For starters she is WAAAAAAY too touchy . you cant say anything to her ,without her flying off the deep end saying how "everyone hates her" and " i'll just never say anything again" or the ever so popular "i'll just go kill my self then" see , i told you she was emo. those are actual lorrie phrases. even my friends have noticed her emoness.
she's just a basket case . and i 've goten to the point where i no longer let her have the satisfaction of making me feel sorry for her. which is what she wants in the first place. instead i let her think what she says is true. i say ok lorrie. your right , you really are worthless and nobody cares about you.It may sound mean . but it makes her shut up and stop bitching. she just says "fine , whatever" or something to the effect. she basically just drops the act.

like i said. i cant stand them